God Isnt a fan of being #2......

"Be careful not to forget the LORD who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the place of slavery." Deut. 6:12

So for those of you readers who dont know, I am preparing for the most exciting day of my life! The day that I get to look into the eyes of the man I love with all my heart. and tell the world that I am going to love, honor and cherish him and only him for the rest of my life! I cant wait! there is nothing Ive looked forward 2 more than this!!  Now I am about to be bluntly honest with you. How can I be a good and godly wife to him if God isnt #1 in my life. heres the story...

There was this guy (Jesus/God) I loved more than anything on the planet! I grew up with Him and hung out with Him on a regular basis. He was my one and only friend. He was there through everything.. He was there when I was little and felt beautiful! and He was there years later holding my hair back while I purged myself because I hated the body He loved.... He was my prince when I felt like a princess and would dance me around when no one was looking....  he was there years later when I tried ending my life because I hated myself. He was cheering when I made a promise to save myself 100% for my future husband. He helped me try keep it by being my protection from a guy I met when I was 12. but then He was there a few years later... in the corner of my bedroom... Crying... when I broke that promise.. and through every let down, He was there. There was a time I promised to be His forever and that I was sorry that I ever hurt Him by my actions. and He showed me that if I believe, Just believe that he took all the times I let Him down and all the times I did even the little stupid stuff and that he Died for it..... and rose again just so He could have that forever relationship with me!... I could have it!!   I did, I believed I swear, and it was good... for a while. But then I took Him for granted, walked around like the love He had for me was no big deal. ever do that? I swore off love completely, I put God in a box and told Him that there is no way possible a Human guy would ever love me, and even if he did that I would never want to receive it...

Fast forward!!! I MET MY FIANCE DANIEL! 

I was soooo thankfull for him! I would go to bed at night just telling God how crazy He is for giving me what I always wanted after all I put Him through. Night after night, Just telling God how thankful I was for this amazing blessing of crazy love that I have never felt from a human being before!!!... Then after a while.. God would fade in and out of the picture and when He would show up I would feel so guilty for not making Him my whole life any more. 

You see the verse that I started this out with is talking to the Children of Isreal. check this out!!

 ¹⁰ “When the LORD your God brings you into the land He swore to your fathers Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob that He would give you—a land with large and beautiful cities that you did not build, ¹¹ houses full of every good thing that you did not fill them with, wells dug that you did not dig, and vineyards and olive groves that you did not plant—and when you eat and are satisfied, ¹² be careful not to forget the LORD who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the place of slavery.

This guy is telling these people that God is gonna give them things they dont deserve to have! Cities that they had no part in building, full houses that they didnt fill, wells that they didnt dig, and food that they didnt palnt!! You would think after all of this that verse 12 wouldnt have to be there... DUH!!! how could they forget God after all He had given them?!? But yet we read only 3 chapters later that They rebel!! How typical! and how like us is that really? 

Take time out now to think of all the Jobs,Friends, Possetions, Homes (how many places that if u needed it, would give u a place to stay?) But yet how much time have you taken out of your week to ¹² be careful not to forget the LORD...

Love U All!!

Becky<><