Momologian

Psalm 139:23-24  " Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." I can quote scripture like that till my face is blue and not mean a word of it... I can sing songs asking God to have my life, and inside be hanging on so tight that it kills me... I dont know if any of you have been where I am at right now. But its painfully amazing!!  I was at the supper table with my husband to be. Holding in all the frustrations that I had from the day. trying to seem like everything was ok (y do I even bother acting strong?) He saw right through it, mainly because the frustration was seeping out and started being aimed at him. He asked if I was ok and out of nowhere all the hurt and frustration and fear and anger just started pouring out. While I was venting he took a piece of paper and started drawing. When I was done I looked at the paper.... There in the corner of the blank page was a c...

When I was a child, I remember sitting on the floor in front of my grandpa and watching him cross stitch. He would be soo careful as to where to put the needle. tho from my angle it looked UG-LY!!!  But i wasn't gonna say anything... I would watch as he took different color thread and meshed it together. it looked all tangled up. I didn't know how people could do this and think its so cool. I asked "papa r u done yet?" "nope not yet, but when I am I will let you see"     I watched him for a week, the mess from my angle got bigger and bigger until one day It was 2 much "PAPA R U DONE YET?" "Yes, come on up" I climbed on his lap and saw it... the most BEAUTIFUL picture ever it was of a sunset, with all the colors I saw from my end meshed soo beautifully to fit to his plan.     I don't know about you but I sometimes find myself lost in my own thoughts. whether they be good or bad they're there. I work at typing plant so it gives me ...